I never really knew my father. He died when I was five less than a month before his birthday. He was driving home but never made it. Having to pull over as his heart gave out on him. Found by a state trooper in his work van. I try not to dwell on it though. I often wonder what he would think of me if he were alive. Would he be proud of me? Would he approve of the path my life has taken? I can’t really say; I can only hope that he would.

Losing him taught me about the fleeting nature of life, and the importance of valuing not only life but the memories of those who are no longer with us. It is how my father remains with me. Memories, pictures, and stories make up the sum of my father for me now. They are all I have of him now. If I were to ever lose those, well I don’t like to think about that possibility.

The main memories I have of him are fleeting. Glimpses really, impressions of a life I did not know. I suspect some bits of those are creations woven from the fabric of my mind, partial memories, and those things I wished for and from him. I do remember though. I remember his smile and his laugh. How he was bald, and had many friends. I remember riding in his van. I recall his chasing me around the house; laughing with my sister, and myself as we ran and ran. I can remember to this day how he let me try a cigarette. And how it burned, and how he knew it would. I never did smoke cigarettes. I remember his drinking beers in the back yard joking with everyone. I remember bits of a trip to Canada too. And, most importantly, I know that he loved me.

I hope that one day I will be able to see him in whatever afterlife there may be. And I know I will tell him about my life, and how I missed him, and how I hope that I did something right in my life. And I feel, I hope, that he will approve, and maybe understand.

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I Am Back

For those that take the time to read what I post after taking about a month off for various personal reasons. I’ve decided to start up again. I am also going to reserruect Technophilia and give it a serious go.

A Trial I Say!

Amazon sent me an offer for a 30-day trial of the Kindle so I decided to take them up on it. I’ve toyed with getting one but since I could not pick one up and use it I held off. This is a smart move by Amazon to do trials. It looks like they are only doing it for selected Prime customers though. I R SPESHUL. It came today so we’ll see how I like it. I plan on blagging about my thoughts on it in a few days.

On Games…

I played around with the Warhammer MMO for a bit but found it lacking. Looks like WoW is still king for me. With the expansion pre-patch coming tomorrow and the expansion one month away I feel my precious little free time slipping away.

The Familia

Mom is back home and doing ok. 2 months of hospital time and physical rehab are not fun. She was glad to be back home. She also complained because I don’t come see her enough. Good sign she is back in the swing of things. My Uncle though, I need to go see him. I may soon.

P.S.

Oh and I cut my hair but am letting the beard come back. Started talking to someone again that I really was kind of distant from for too long. Nice to have them back. I also think I need a vacation but am not sure where. I don’t want to go too far and I mostly want to chill and have some fun. Any ideas?

Some fun links:

Darth Vader on Twitter.

The animated Universal Declaration of Human Rights

Skitch

For those who like bling with their water

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